Saying no more, it's over, is one thing...meaning it, is another....

Saying no more, it's over, is one thing...meaning it, is another....
Even though i think i made a good decision for...i'm still tethered to you...
Not saying it will probably make my decision right...i guess?!?!...
Grateful to you GOD...'cause you close some doors in my life and also for the ones you opened...
Being hurt doesn't mean that i have to be sad...on the contrary i have to put on my best smile so i can make others happy....
I know that i have HIM to help me smile....
Am I being a fool:
-for going to the begin over and over again??...
-for trying harder??...
-for thinking how to forget how to love you that way??...
I know that i make no sense at all...but...you...still...
It's killing me see you go...after all we....
Sometimes it just doesn't work out as much as WE would like to....Both agreed on where we should go...
Friends....i like the sound of that...a new start...
LORD thank you for your blessings.....

I won't be fast...

Sometimes being different helps...the problem is the other times...
GOD guide me, hold me tight, so there's no chance for me to fall...
I didn't know that was and challeging being in this car racing rhat life is...but i won't be fast, i'll just take my time to do what my SAVIOR N' KING wants...
I get lost in my own thoughts, i guess you're not able to come and rescue me...
There is always something between the lines, and i hope you're the one that can read it and figure it out...
There's times when i'm not enough, but my LORD is more than enough and HE is the only one i need to trust...
I'm not going to be afraid just because you want scare me....I have someONE higher that is by my side protecting me....

Somewhere...

Somewhere in the midle...
Why the DISTANCE is ALWAYS on MY way...OUR way...??
This is so difficult...
We've been through a lots of things...some wonderful, and some not so ggod...
All i need id the streght to keep going up...until i get on the top of the mountain....
The future is not always what "we" want...but what GOD thinks is best for "us"...
Who would've imagine that we would get this far....so far away from the begining?...
Trying to feel good won't work for ever....but GOD will be their for us no matter what...(and i hope you too)...
My life just needs two buttons, one to go back and other to pause, so i can see you again and somehow make it last longer...

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DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY...

Enough is enough!! i can not keep thinking about you...about if you really care...you are just TMTH right now...i have other things to worry about!...but at the same time i love thinking of you!!
why do i recognize this thoughts??
i hate you for not trying harder like i tried...but still i can't stay mad at you and i don't understand why...
i don't have anymore strength to deal with you...you capture me and you took away all my energies...
i'm scared to say goodbye...'cause what's after that??...i dont really wanna say goodbye....
i should've said no...why did i let myself go??
time goes on so quickly right in front on my eyes...
you are the only exception in my life...with you i can truly be myself...
i don't wanna lose you....
i didn't tell about you to others for nothing....sometimes because of situations like this hold my feelings back and i have afraid to say it...but i did say it and is gotta be worth it...miss you so badly...
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