Another year...

I have been so out....so away....so off from everything....and dont know why...i mean...it might have something to do with the fact that i don't want this year to end...cause it has been so far so great...
Another year passed by...special moments passed by...new friends were made...new things were experienced...new feelings were discovered...looks were exchanged...
GOD thanks for another amazing year... full of blessings...opportunities...and open doors...good and bad moments... your faithfullness...for being with me all the time...for him...for a new friendship...for everything that you have done in my life... I can not thank you enough...
Don't you forget to thanks GOD for everything...for HIS wonders...HIS love...so on and on...just don't forget that every YES and every NO from HIM is for a reason...HE planned everything in our life to the last detail ... to the last promenor...and still because of HIS love HE gave us a choice... either stay with HIM or not...and sometimes that are people that forget it...
So tomorrow is the last day of the year....and for next year ...i hope to be more prepared than i am now... more aware than i am now...more conscious than i am now...more open than i am now...more concentrated than i am now...more connect than i am now...more faithfull and near to GOD than i am now...
I trust you GOD with all my heart...and i know you won't left me alone...

Happy Entrance for the New Year to everyone...;D

Distance...

Somehow i don't understand how two people can be so connected and still be so appart from each other...and for some reason all i want to do is to erase the word DISTANCE from my vocabulary, from my grammar, from my books...and be able to break a pen whenever i'm trying to write that ....or break the keys of my computer whenever i'm trying to type it...i just wanna make it disappear forever...but i know that's impossible...and that i have to live with that...
All i can do is shorten it...so that i can grab the "connected" and the "appart" and make it work no matter what...But is it what GOD wants??....
I bit my head up trying to put each tought and each memory in the right place.....but they keep coming back...
WHAT CAN I DO?....I NEED HELP...URGENTLY...

GOD help me...

A Place....

We will never let it fold a story that was never told...look how fast the time as flown...to a place we'll never known...to a place that we might never go back...to a place that is a mistery...to a place that just a few of us know...
If i go back to this place, i might break in little pieces...i might not survive...and that's a sad thing 'cause i want that place again....i want that peace again...i want that confort again...
I keep trying to avoid the unavoidable things...to write the unwritten things...to forget the unforgetable things...to make sense with nonsense things...to make excuses with unexcused things...to speak the unspeakable things...
Look me in the eyes and then say what ever you have to say...that way i can see the truth behind your look..
I know that GOD will ease my pain...GOD is so amazing that we can not even imagine...HE has done so much not just for me but for all of us to make things easier and we keep forgetting to give HIM thanks

Get out of my mind.....

Get out of my mind...i can not take it anymore...it's so hard....everyone keeps talking about you...when i just want to avoid you inside my own head...inside my own heart...
They say "him...him...him...him...him...him...him something.....and all i want to say back is "FORGET HIM, 'CAUSE I NEED TO!"...
My thoughts take the other part of the guilt because they don't let me to take a breath without thinking of you...
With that said, i still don't regret THE DECISION....just if you were wondering...
Despite all of this i know that....i have one place where i can go and where i wont think or feel anything for you...and i reach that place when i'm in GOD's presence...HE is my hiding place, my safe refuge...so there i just need to surrender to HIS love and give my worries to HIM...
I love life 'cause even though i might fall of the track sometimes....there's always my FATHER, right next to me, to pick me up...

Why life has to be so complicated??

Why life has to be so complicated??....Why it has to be like playing drums, coordinating all at once??...I like drums but i suck at it...i also like life and i'm no good at it too...why can it be one thing at a time??....it's hard to take control of all...
I know that there are answers that are not supposed to be answered...it's difficult living with that....but i have to live with that just trusting to the ONE i love the most...
I was finally getting near to the begining of being over you...but...you make me wonder...you make me go back....I'm in the same place again...even though i'm trying hard to move on...
Handling with my thoughts...OH BOY! it's not an easy task...not at all...even for my self....
I'm getting tired, but i know GOD is guiding me and HE  won't leave me....Blessed be the name of the LORD...I LOVE YOU JESUS....

This text it's so out of order, because my mind is a mess....honestly it's not surprising, i do not make sence most of the times...