So Many...

I dont want to be in this situation... It doesn't affect me but i prefer to avoid it...
People talking to me about...someone that once was part of my life... and I have to pretend that I dont remember WHO is HIM... that one day ran after marking me positive and negatively by his friendship.... but I think it's what it is ...
We have to learn from our mistakes... i always heard that...
There were so many unanswered questions ... so many wounds without mercy ...
You didn't put an end ... you just let ellipsis ... and they're still with me ... I do not think I'll be waiting much longer for the last conversation you promise me... i just don't care anymore...
What ever will be...will be...

It's Weird....

It's weird how sad the funny things get as time goes by...
It's weird that i don't have nothing to say... though i love to talk...
...nothing makes me pick up my pen..... though i love to write...
...nothing interesting to listen .... though i love music
Anyone could say that I'm lost...and that... i might be crazy....sad.... angry.... or what ever...but...even weirder is that I'M NOT!...
I dont even recognize myself... i'm not saying that that is a bad thing....
God knows the answer to every "WHY?".... and HE listens to our prayers...Thanks for that...

Even thought it was a Great day....

Even though it was a great, great day.... i admit that while i was laughing for everything and nothing, while i was hanging out, while i was watching the movie... i couldnt stop thinking about you and how i would like today be a different day... it should be just like the day i had planned... but i guess that we cant always get what we want... isnt that right??....
I know that i was rough... but i had to... i mean.... i was looking like a fool...waiting for nothing... i also know that i dont have the right to require anything from you... but i was expecting some consideration from you....
It's not ok... i need an answer...
I just hope that you dont regret the decision that you made... choosing the silence... choosing not saying what you wanted...
I just want to do GOD's will.... and i hope this is it...

Last 10 seconds...

In the last day of the year i was not sure that i wanted to keep going...not sure of what i wanted... who i wanted to be with... where to go... and the perpuse of all and anything... i honestly wasn't happy... but soon as the last 10 seconds of the year went away i knew.... right away... who was with me... who i wanted to be with... where i needed to go... where i wanted to go... i was instantly happy.... i knew the perpuse....
All beause of GOD that keeps people in the right place... in the exact time just for me... because of HIS love everything is possible...
I know now that all i have to do  is keep going without looking back and still remember the most important things... going foward... dont stop me... cause even if you try, I WONT....


Curiosity: i wrote this text, right on my cell... when i was in bed almost sleeping i grabbed my cell and i started writting... XD