whorshiping GOD...the ONE and ONLY...

sábado, 26 de fevereiro de 2011

"La vie en rose"...


You have heard everything from me but have you ever really listen what I was saying?... you are so busy trying to let go that you don’t even remember what you didn’t want to have anymore…
I let you know so much about me… I don’t regret it but if I could, I would go back words… I think now that “c’est la vie” and not always is “en rose”… I for once let myself go and now I can’t take it back…
Sometimes it’s hard to believe that there’s always going to be a change… for bad or for good? ... we never know…
I miss you being my friend… not just a friend a good friend… a friend that I could talk to without caring about the rest of the world…
You will never get by me and turn out to be nothing or just one more person in the same street as me… which means that I will never forget, not like you did…
Every time you say something I love what I feel… even though that it might mean nothing… I, for some reason, get happy, afraid, excited, unsure… because I never know if is the last time you talk to me…
You pushed me out… and even though it seems I’m okay with it… I’m not… I need to get in… you make me be myself… but now I’m pretending to be fine…

Can you....??


Can you forget? I can't... Can you feel me? I’m so close to your heart… Can you hear me? In the silence I scream your name saying that I love you… Can you breathe? I can’t, because I know that I’ll never ever have you again… Can you kiss me? I won’t let you… Can you see me? I can, if close my eyes, and I doubt that you can! ... CAN YOU REMEMBER ME AGAIN?....

quarta-feira, 9 de fevereiro de 2011

LAST KISS... LAST MOMENT...

I was naive to think that it wasn't going to be a last kiss...

What was missing in the end was the actually last kiss... a specific kiss that was never given... a kiss that would mark THE END of something great... a kiss that would've given me the memory of the last day that we loved each other... just like a goodbye...

I still remember the FIRST kiss... all I wanted now was the LAST kiss... the last moment... the last talk... the last hug...the last move of my lips saying your name... the last tear dropping down your face... the last beat of your heart for me... the last bit of feeling  for me as US...

Knowing that i could still be your friend... was the most exciting thing... after all we had been trough.... but you let me down... you ran away... you were afraid to face the situation...you just couldn't handle the fact that I was completly fine with it...

I just wanted a true FINISH... I'm not saying that I still have hope in "the" us... which I don't have... I just think that both of us would deserve that...

If this were a movie you would be here for that... you would be just my friend... and for that I'm still waiting...

GOD will do his work in it's own time... I know for sure that HE will be faithful to me... and that HE will do his will in my life and that's what I want... despite of the obstacles.... despite having to let some parts of my life go...

quinta-feira, 3 de fevereiro de 2011

Tired...Happy...

One day i will get so mad and i will forget the consequences... forget your reaction... your opinion... i will put myself out there...and scream at you so hard about everything..... about what ever is left unsaid.... about everything and nothing... i'm going to say non-sense  things...tired of taking  everything to myself...
Besides all i'm super hiper mega happy....GOD does everything in it's own time....HE knows what needs to be done...
The only thing that i know for sure about the future is that.... i will keep on serving GOD...
I dont deserve you or your love and you are still by my side protecting me and taking care of me...
I can not thank you enough my LORD.... YOU never let me down....
LOVE YOU GOD <3